how bad could it be, when you can only feel what you really are, what you really mean, through the sacrifice and pain of others whom you really love… still calm… hiding into deeper sleep…

H.Q.
29/04/2007, 09:48

Jealous… of one, of him, who does not deserve all the chances he has got… the unworthy… the laziest… of him who thinks he knows everything, but doesn’t… I don’t envy him, neither him I do hate… but he’s just my living proof of the un-just Godly created Earth…

H.Q.
27/04/2007

Dreams, have stepped up into another level of complication, a higher one, far beyond our “everyday” realism, reaching a completely different range of higher resolution shapes, geometries, and enhanced logical reactions. The brain has just stopped building upon materials from the “Real” world, it started creating its own separate “reality”, no more using the same old characters, no more using the ready-made scenes from actual “Existing” places… the platform is all “New and Improved”… like testing the new enhanced Beta version of the “Matrix”, once you wake up, everything you see in your dreams gets instantly mixed within your permanent memory, and gets its own time tag, getting integrated seamlessly into your “Real World” experiences…

The Brain is simply leaving the “Influences Era” and preparing to make a radical jump to the “Creative Era”…
while no more building on existing pre-installed models, the Brain has made a huge difference, starting from the perfect re-collection of info, to create the most perfect creature you could NEVER dream of… to creating these visually complicated, colour-rich, hi-res geometry, fully rendered complete cities! All made up of pure originality, never using any portion of the existing modules.
People’s reactions are improved, being totally controlled from the “Outside” of the Brain. They’re as real as everything else in the wake, with one advantage; scents, flavours, feelings… all are experienced in a deeper way in dreams, and leaving a deeper effect after waking up than the “Real-life” experiences…

It seems like it’s only a matter of time before all tests are complete, so we finally get re-allocated up onto the newer versions of these “Real” servers… currently, all it needs to take you there is an eternal sleep…

Hopefully so soon…

H.Q.
30 March 2007
19:12

Oh ye ugly creatures…
as i was wrong the moment i created you, so shall i take your souls with my own hands!!! or… well… you know… i won’t need to!!!

it’s only a matter of time, and you’re gonna kill each living creature on this sucking planet!!!

i could never imagine that i could create such a gang of hollow-coasts and hollow-heads….

just mind your own business, and leave religions alone… after all, i’m not the one who told the “prophets” to go all the way to call for a “pray”!!!! but they thought they were doing well… and right now… your prophets do no longer exist… as i don’t intend to make a heaven and Hell in the first place!!! YOU just deserve NEITHER…. YOU deserve to VANISH… and so will be…

and YOU… who think that “NO GOD CAN SIGN A BLOG”!!! YES I CAN… i am the one who created YOU!!! REMEMBER!!!! so how can’t i make my comment!!!!

you filthy believers…. and you filthy non-believers… just watch your step so you don’t fall… cause i am no longer watching over you….

Humans are a waste of time…

i’m creating Hamsters for the time being….

H.Q.@G.O.D.
16 August 2006, 02:23:59

This is no piece of poetry, neither it’s a try to write something that rhymes… it’s just a mess of mere rawness that went across his heart… 3Months, 10Days… R.I.P.

And here i read your lines
as they were mine..
places exchanged…
and all is set for the journey…
the journey.. away from you…

no more blood shall run through my veins
for it has flew away
on the wings of wind, and fate

no more light shall enter my eyes… nor heart
for the only light i had, is lost in the dark…

shall i not feel the beauty of the world again… nor sense it at all
for the only beautiful creation of God…
can no more feel me…

are u there…. are you!!
or shall i not ask for a lifetime
cause even the words are no more worth spoken…
as if they are not being told to you…
…

“But now I don’t see you anywhere.
Cause the time stopped.
And I wish I could say that we were going in circles”

but we’re going nowhere…

“My own life is standing still.
…And though we’ve traveled far together,
the last distance must necessarily be traveled alone….”

how could you think of all these things…
have you been in me… deeper than i thought

“of course no…”
howls a God besides my foot…
and lifts me… up to hell
“You had your share of Heaven..
for which you shall payback…
oh thee ugly filthiness…”

i had a share of heaven…
more than that i deserve…
so shall no mercy fall upon me…
for i everly am..
so soft, so ugly… so useless…

and now you’re gone…
and now i’m back…
to my former state…
a heart of stone… ‘still too soft
an image of God… ‘still… uglier
and a bunch of words… so empty… so useless…

so fool…

H.Q.
23:25
11 Oct. 2005

today… I have seen a man fading…. well, not any man… for the first time I see.. a soul… getting tortured more than mine… in a disgusting twisted way… his heart have run away… and now, he’s run out of hope.. life.. and humanity…
well, “God has his ways”… and they’re twisted, and filthy…
“it’s all for a purpose”… a purpose, more twisted and hellish than the ways themselves…

well, right now, this man has a 2-3 years of pain to live… or to die… starting from now… these years will either pass slowly, meaningless, empty, pointless, and naked of all feelings and senses… or they might pass slower, meaningful, full.. of sorrow… pointless, hopeless, and full of broken feelings and desperate senses… and maybe.. well, they may not even pass… as time has just stopped…

and today… I’ve seen a woman fading…. fading through his eyes… far away on the other side… a hundred miles away from him… but still… she’s not…

they were both damned for they were both born… in this everly-twisted play… it’s no more about the choices you make… your choices have never been yours… what’s the need for a freewill if you have nothing to choose from…. and well, no need to mention God… it’s all well known…

God, let them die for good… and let me die with them…
just look at him….
just look at me…
I’m so soft… so ugly… and so useless… yes I am… but I’m more useful than you are….

oh thou ugly Gods… as ye have created shame… so thee be ashamed…
as ye have brought love, as ye have brought pain…. so shalt thee feel both.. combined…
shall you stop your ugly game… and halt your boring play… for you have read my lines.. before they got written….. for once… F.E.E.L..
but as I know… the same as you do… “feel” is just a word…. and “word” is quite nothing… and “nothing” doesn’t even exist… as “existence” have never been… and “being” was never there… as “there” was nothing… as “nothing” was there… and as “nothing” has never existed… just as “existence” itself… the only thing that “exists” is You, Holy God… so shall you celebrate your loneliness…

shall I not feel sorrow…
shall I not feel pain….
shall I not feel at all..
for it’s no more unexpected…
for it’s no more “unknown”…
and now, even “death” can do nothing….
but “nothing” doesn’t even exist…
as “existence” has never been…
and “being” was never there…
all is “there” was You… only You, Poor God… Poor Despicable God…
so shall you celebrate your loneliness… as you’re not even “All” alone… you’re just “alone”..by yourself…
so shall you celebrate… for you’re, just, alone…

02:28 28/07/2005
for Jason, for Serine..for history… as if they have ever existed..

02:32 28/07/2005
for me…the soft, the ugly.. the useless… the less deserving of all.. pathetically sickening..
H.Q.